New start. Again.

OK so I've so far started afresh pretty much every month this year. And something keeps cropping up. I'm nearly as heavy as I was in Jan 2009 (if I take the last weight reading I trust!) and I'm not happy about it.

If I lost half a kilo a week that would be a stone by Christmas and half way to goal by my 31st birthday.

If I lost a kilo a week, it would be a stone by Christmas and goal by my birthday.

I'm going to aim somewhere in between.

It's not even a new new start, it's a continuation of a lot of previous new starts. Since June certainly I've let things slide and things aren't moving. So I need to look at what I was doing before this.

I'm still not used to my new gym, so I don't feel comfortable in there yet.That means I'm constantly finding excuses to not go. And there's no one here to make arrangements with so there's no wriggling out of it. So there's no pressure on me if i come home and slouch for the evening. Except it leads to wasting entire evenings.

I've not come to terms with my new kitchen yet either. it sounds weird but it's so different from the old one and nothing is where it used to be cos none of the cupboards match up to where they used to me. I'm still trying to move things around to suit me. Most of all I'm lacking counter space for chopping, mixing, baking, etc. So, I need to expose myself to the kitchen more. Which means spending more time in said kitchen. Which will in time lead to getting used to it and wanting to use it more.

I'm spending a lot of time sitting on the floor in front of the telly looking at things that I need to sort out and not having the motivation to sort it out. So I'm doing one thing tonight that's been bugging me. Just one thing. I'm going to sort out the extra bookshelf in the living room that's slowly becomed filled with crap. The books will go on a proper bookshelf, the crap will get thrown out, everything will be put in it's place. That's just one thing to make this house my own.

And once that one thing is done, the room will be more spacious, easier to clean, easier to keep tidy. And will lead to other 'one things'.

it's all about getting a routine going, and keeping it going. So I'm going to start laying out my loose routine tonight and see how it works next week - which will be difficult cos I'm away at a course for most of it but I can work around that - I always have before.

I have an appointment at the gym for a workout review on Monday evening. I will explain to the person doing the review how I'm feeling and what I want to achieve in my workouts. I will write this down for myself so I can remember it all.I'm also going to plan which 2 classes I can attend each week with ease. Just two - that's all. Giving up 2hrs a week is nothing.
 
I will do this. I will succeed. I will not let my depression and weight defeat me!!!