Good weekend

A bit of a tough night on Friday night - a friend came to visit me from Newcastle so we had a bit of a session - but still under cals :)

Saturday was spent on a train and in a course. A really good course mind, but a bit intense. And considering I had chocolate for breakfast, a miracle I came in under cals :)

Today was a mostly quiet day - Al's parents were over for lunch and that was pretty much what I'd ate today :)

Which is good cos it was lovely, but wow am I stuffed.

So, nice bath and early bed for me :)

Today was a good day

Despite the inauspicious start at 3am and being unable to sleep today was a good day. I went into work for 5am so I could get away by 1, I went to the vampires (aka the nurses who specialise in taking blood samples) and to the post office so all my bills are taken care of for the month.

I managed 8 portions f&v and I'm well over 5000steps for the day. (5000 is what I'm aiming for to allow me to have a 'moderately sedentary' allowane. If I can increase it to 7000steps a day for 6 weeks i'm allowing myself to increase to 'moderately active' :))

So all in all a good day. The cals include a portion of apple crumble that Im not entirely sure I'll have but the option is there if I need it :)

Last week was very very difficult, but i think going to the doctor was a good move and it will help me in the week ahead. I ended up 500cals over for the week and didn't lose any weight, but equally I didn't gain any either. So that's good. As a reflection though, I really need to get back to the gym - I'm really starting to notice a difference in my clothes now and I think it's the lack of exercise..................

Anyway - daily round up below :)


Daily Cal Quota: 1492


+ Exercise Cals: 0

Total Cal Quota: 1492

Calories Consumed: 1273

Calories Left: 219

Cals to Maintain Weight: 2492

Today was a better day

Daily Cal Quota: 1492


+ Exercise Cals: 221

Total Cal Quota: 1713

Calories Consumed: 1639

Calories Left: 73

Cals to Maintain Weight: 2492

 
As can be seen the numbers look better today than they have for a long long time...........I'm still over for the week but today is the first day of the rest of my life and it's going to be a good one. F&v 8 portions. And some exercise. So that is good :)
 
And I've got a lie in in the morning cos I've to go to get some bloods taken..........well every cloud etc :)

New day, new week, new start!!

Well ok, so the weekend could have been a lot lot worse. And it wasn't too bad really. As of things after I eat lunch today but before I eat dinner, I am 180 cals over for the week. But I'm planning on doing some exercise so I can make up a decent amount to have dinner with!!!

And there's always tomorrow to claim back some cals as well. In other news I've managed an average of 7 portions f&v a day so that's well on track and the nutitrional info below appears to be ok. The alcohol cals were probably a mistake but it was a fun night so not the end of the world.

Percent Calories From:
Carbohydrate (50.2%)

Protein (12.6%)
Fat (30%)
Alcohol (7.1%)

today and tomorrow to get through and then weigh in on Wednesday. I was at the docs on Friday and she's sending me for bloods to see if there's a medical reason I find it hard to lose weight, but I really don't hold out much hope for that. She has upped my anti depressants though so fingers crossed that will have a positive effect!!! I am glad I went to see her though cos I was starting to stress and now things just don't appear as bad!!!
 
So, tonight I will be having a nice bowl of soup for dinner and maybe some bread (don't worry, it will be a BIG bowl of soup lol) and hopefully I will earn enough cals to make a hot chocolate achieveable!!! :)
 
And by end of play tomorrow I will be under cals again for the week - all ready to start fresh on Wednesday :)

Been a rough few days

I've had a pretty tough week and haven't been properly keeping track of what I've eaten or done. This is bad.

On the plus side, I went to the doctor today to talk about some things and she's sending me for some blood tests and upping my meds to see if it makes a difference for me. I've not been sleeping, I've not been eating, I've had no energy, I've been getting really tense and freaked out by people.........so hopefully the weight will start dropping again...........

Cals today are way over - not sure by how many, but way way over..........

Tomorrow is another day and I'm off to bed now - and yes I realise what time it is!!! lol

Today was a bad day

961cals over allowance so just about barely within maintenance allowance but definitely not healthy eating.

A long day after little sleep, spent with people I really don't like spending time with......led to an accidental - well ok fully intentional - consumption of a 140g fruit and nut........so ok not the whole damage but about half of it!!!!!

Off to bath and bed for me :D

17th & 18th January

Yesterday's cals - made it to 4.5 portions but I've made up for this today!!! lol

Daily Cal Quota: 1492
+ Exercise Cals: 0
Total Cal Quota: 1492
Calories Consumed: 1447
Calories Left: 45
Cals to Maintain Weight: 2492

Today's:
Dailt Cal Quote: 1492
+ Exercise Cals: 0
Total Cal Quota: 1492
Calories Consumed: 1260
Calories left: 232
Cals to Maintain Weight: 2492

And 10 portions of f&v today :D

So not too bad. It was my first day back at work and I think the routine really really helped. I'm off on a site visit tomorrow which will be more difficult but I'll manage somehow :)

No exercise yet - still too ill after last week - but I was able to put in a decent days work and stay awake so that's a good sign :D

WOOHOO!!!

Today is a good day

So far anyway, although I'm strictly talking about diet wise here :)

In  other news, I stubbed my toe this morning so got a bruise there, and just managed to myself a horrible looking bruise on the back of my hand by falling against a door. So no purple clothes, makeup or anything else for a while!!! I'm NOT coordinating my wardrobe around my bruises!!!

But on the diet lark - I'm managing a fairly balanced diet today. Porridge for breakfast, quorn stir fry with cheese, lettuce and a wrap for lunch and quorn chilli for dinner. OK so maybe a bit of overdose on the quorn but it saves me money, it tastes better than meat and it keeps my protein up :)

Plus I'm off to a party tonight and Al loves my outfit!!! :) Woohoo :)

So I'm in full size 16 outfit with high heels and feeling fab (bruises notwithstanding) and I'm going to rock!!! (Albeit very carefully cos of the whole still not quite being in full health yet!!!!)

The Diets that Time Forgot

It's come up with a nice sentence. For me anyway :)


'They must learn to practise restraint'

Now I can do this with money, shoes, books, but with food......it's really difficult!!!

So I need to start thinking about ways to get restraint around food. There must be some way I can learn restraint or train myself to restraint with food. Denying myself foods doesn't work long term because I end up binging. Allowing myself as much of the food as I want doesn't really work because I manage to keep on eating and eating and eating. So I need to allow myself something in moderation. But controlling that and determining what 'moderation' is and what it means to me is going to be difficult.

I want to lose weight. No that's not true.

I want to be a healthy weight. I want to be able to go to the doctors with a complaint and not have him say, 'well losing a few pounds probably wouldn't help'. I want to be able to enjoy food for the sake of enjoying food without the associated feelings of guilt or unhappiness or any of the rest. I want to be able to live my life and be able to relax around food.

I know the basics of energy in vs energy out. I know that anything I eat I can earn back through cals. But I also know I need to look at getting the right kind of balance into my life as well. I can't obsess over this, but I need to be aware of what I'm eating and what kind of ratio of food types I'm eating as well. I'm not sure the whole food pyramid is exactly the right way to go but it might not be a bad place to start!!

So I'm going to do some research and plan out a diet for the next week and see how it goes.

I want to get balance, no energy dips and some sensible eating habits. I can spend next weekend working on the exercise side of things and work out a sensible approach to that as well.

I will do this. I am not giving up just cos of a small blip. I will succeed.

Regroup and plan

OK so last night should have been the review and plan for the next week post. It didn't happen cos of various things but mainly I feel lousy. So I'm reviewing this morning instead. Lucky me being off work sick. Still.

Daily total Consumed Weekly difference
Wed 06/01/2010 1511 1511 2388 877 877
Thu 07/01/2010 1511 1511 1709 198 1074
Fri 08/01/2010 1511 1511 1511 1074
Sat 09/01/2010 1511 1511 1511 1074
Sun 10/01/2010 1511 1511 1511 1074
Mon 11/01/2010 1511 1511 1572 61 1135
Tue 12/01/2010 1511 1511 1701 190 1325
Weekly Total 10577 10577 11902 1325


So according to my cals I was only 1325 over. But I didn't log for 3 days over the weekend cos I really didn't know what I was eating to be honest so that could be a lot more. Not a fantastic week, but I did show a 1kg loss on the scales from the post-Christmas weight so that's not too bad. And I was ok on the nutritional side - a bit to high on the fat, but within 10% tolerance so I'm happy :)

Next week (or this week rather) is going to be equally hard. I'm not back on work til Monday s0 that means no routine til Monday. And that's if I feel better. I'd better feel better mind, I'm starting to get really anxious and het up about all I'm missing. This is not helping the getting better thing so I'm going to have to work on this.

So the plan for today is to have a nice long bath using all my fancy stuff to make me feel better, then go down to boots and pick up some cough bottle and some face wash (both of which I need) and to head to the post office and get my ebay packages in the post. All things I need to do and which will get me out of the house and into the fresh air.

Tomorrow, I will think up a reason to leave the house as well, and Saturday and Sunday. Even if it's just to the corner shop. This has two aims: one to get me into the air, and two to get me doing some sort of gentle exercise. I can't get much more gentle than the 10mins into town.

For Monday and Tuesday I will get a walk in during work - there's lots of excuses I can think of for that so that won't be a problem.

Part two of the plan will be to keep within cals for every day this week. Yesterday is blown cos of a blow out with chocolate last night but the rest of the week is slavageable. I just have to think before I eat and put some of the things I've been reading about into practice.

One thing I am going to try this week is to tune into my body - listen to it and see what it's telling me. Am I hungry or am I comfort eating? Am I tired or distressed? Am I fed up or grumpy or just tired? What are the reasons behind it? It will take some effort and I don't expect to get it right all the time but at least allowing myself to take the time to note these things and why will be a step on the way. A mood diary of sorts I suppose.

Part three, is to up the intake of fruit and veg - with particular emphasis on the veg. Fruit I don't find too difficult to eat but veg I find the effort not worth it most of the time lol So I need to start expanding my range of vegetables and think of interesting things to do with them.

OK I think that's enough for this week. I will hopefully still be posting daily on how I'm getting on but the weekly post I'm planning on being an institution to force myself to take the time to think about how things have been and reasons why things may not be going so well. :)

OK 97kg, 12 to go for the next target :)

First day of the new me

Right well my weight loss site (www.weightlossresources.co.uk) is running a New Leaf Challenge right now. One of the tasks is to post a list of the new habits you're going to incorporate in the new year.

Well here's my post:

OK I'm jumping on the bandwagon.

- I'm going to eat 5 f&v a day with the aim of consuming more portions of vegetable than fruit - initially trying for 3 portions of veg a day

- I'm going to exercise enough so that I gain an extra days cals by exercise (at the minute this means I'm aiming for 1500cals of exercise a week) but this will have to wait until I've gotten rid of this blasted cold!!!

- I'm going to devote a minimum of an hour a week to reviewing the week before and planning the week ahead. This will probably take place on a Wednesday evening since Wednesday is weigh in

So there's three habits I want to incorporate in my life from now on.

Today it will be relatively easy to spend the hour reviewing last week and planning next week cos i'm off work sick. It also means that the exercise one will have to take a back seat until I'm better. But, I can do some quiet exercise type things - like going for a quiet walk for 10mins or something. So I may not make my 1500cal aim this week but I am going to try for some exercise cals.

I'll log back on later with the review and the plan for next week :)

New Year, new start...

OK so I'm a bit late to be jumping on the New Year bandwagon but that suits me. I've been off work sick today and I'm not likely to be in tomorrow either so while I can't read or concentrate much I can get some thinking done.

I want to lose 24kg this year. I'm not admitting this anywhere else, but I really really want to reach 74kg this year. That would be a huge achievement. (It would have been 69kg but there was a blip over Christmas so there's another 5kg to catch up on!!!)

So here's the thing. 24kg is 2kg a month, which is 0.5kg a week. Which is very doable once I get back on my feet again. Suffering from a cold is not conducive to weight loss. I don't care what anyone says - cough bottle and lemsip are not cal free unfortunately although I'm taking them as if they are!!

So this week. Well I'm focussing on getting better and I'm eating what I fancy. Today this worked quite well, even with a mammoth bar of choccy I ended up 61cals over my allowance. So this is good. It could've been a lot lot worse. Plus my darling boyfriend has left me with a good big tub of veg curry which will be good - low in cals, filling and spicy so I can taste it!!!

So we're going back to basics for the rest of this month. Record everything I eat and drink, aim for 30mins exercise 5 times a week, 5 fruit & veg a day min, drink 2litres of water a day minimum.

For a start of the year this will be good enough I think. And hopefully I'll be back to my pre Christmas weight in a week or two......it's not proper weight, I know that, I just need to let it go away again now :)

Happy New Year!!!!